Redspades i love you so very much, and today which was our 3 year anniversary and the day we finally got back together! it was the best day ive had in a while, you make me so happy and i know that you wont do anything to hurt me ever again, i forgive you for everything and i know that we will leave a happy and long life together! Happy 3 year anniversary (minus like 6 months :P) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, NOW AND FOREVER

Thankyou for giving me a second chance to be the best girlfriend i can be :-)

<3 <3 <3 >3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 >3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I think my life will soon be starting to get back to how it should be, with me happy and with everything i want in life! it feels great to know that sometime soon that will happen! I know hoping for these good things is bad but when im 99% sure that its going to definately happen i cant help but hope and be happy about it! And im moving interstate at the end of the year, thats another good thing thats happening, but thats kinda the second step to my happiness, im just waiting for the first to happen and i cant wait! gosh i think im rambling a bit! but im just happy and smiling and i havent in a very long time!

and I LOVE REDSPADES :-D woops did i say that out loud hehe

R.I.P Tabitha Oztan, you were a beautiful cat whos life was ended too short! we will miss you so much : (

i want to go back here, to Hamilton Island, i dont think ive ever been as happy as i was here! well i probably have been, this comes close though. This was the best holiday ive ever been on. Everything was perfect, if only i had a time machine! Isnt it beautiful, i would recommend everyone go here for a holiday :) If only i could go back there with a certain person, i would be in heaven!

helloo newgrounds people :)

this may sound pretty desperate, but im rather bored and would like some people to talk to and maybe even become friends with, male and female would be nice! ive found and made some nice friends on newgrounds (lucky people getting to talk to me :P), so if anyone else would wanna chat with me, and i mean serious chat not just stupid dickheads that dont really wanna have a serious chat or get to know me, then PM me and tell me a bit about your self and maybe we can chat on msn or something, hope to hear from people soon :D

no horny lil teenagers either! i will only give my email to genuine people :)

I have a job interview! hope i get the job! :) wish me luck!

hmm just got back from the interview, dont think it went too well :P oh well, i guess ill see at the end of the week

well i have a medical on monday, so i guess thats a pretty good sign :) dont know if i really want the job though oh well its better then nothing and means i wont be sitting around moping everyday :P

I feel like some human contact! i miss it! hugs, kisses, holding hands, snuggling, leaning on people, all that! and you cant do it if your not in a relationship with someone! but i want to do all that! i hate being alone! who wants to give me a hug or a kiss :P pitty no one can actually give me a real one! Its proven that hugs make you feel better! that physical contact with another person makes you feel better as well! i need to feel better! so hugs all around! kisses if your lucky :P im so bored! cant ya tell?

well its been 1 week and 4 days since i got my tattoo, and im pretty sure its nearly all healed, still peeling a little bit, but i think its turned out pretty well! so i thought id put a picture up, cos the other one is all crusty and bloody and yucky! let me know how you think its healed! :)

the picture is a lil blurry, thats cos i had to put it on some special setting and it made it impossible to get it clear!

well i got my tattoo done yesterday! it hurt like hell! was absolutely terrible!!!! but its done now and it still bloody hurts! i made the mistake of telling my mum though, she wasnt pleased and now i feel like crap cos of it! but here is a pic of my tattoo!! :)

well ive changed the picture, i think its a bit better!! :)

HOLY SHIT IM GETTING MY TATTOO ON THURSDAY!!! never been so scared or nervous in my whole life!!! hope i dont faint or cry or something, im likely to though im such a wuss! hahaha and im not even allowed to hold my friends hand! they dont allow friends in the studio! i think thats what is scaring me most!!!! that and pain!

oh and its a cherry blossom with a butterfly and one fallen petal, on the front of my thigh!

farrrrkkk its today! 4 hours! OMG

I have had a new idea!! the photo below my ex took for me, its still a cherry blossom, and we both agree it would make a great tattoo as it has a great meaning to me and us and the relationship we had! im very excited about it! i still want the one fallen blossom to symbolise the loss of him and our relationship, but i think this idea is alot more personal as its not just something that was off an internet site! i need to get it drawn into a tattoo design though, thats the hard part cos i cant draw! im going to get quotes tomorrow though and see what the tattoo artists can come up with! yay!